Over the last few months my writing has slowed down quite a bit. And during this lull I been asking myself a few questions. Should I continue to write? Should I make the investment of time and energy? In the end, is it worth it? Ultimately, these questions have brought me to one central question. Why do I write?
In different situations I write for different reasons. Sometimes I write because I’m trying to capture an experience I had with my kids. Other times it’s because I can make a little extra money. As a pastor, there are other times I write cause it’s part of my job.
But at the heart of it all, I do it because I enjoy it. There is something about sitting down behind my laptop with jumbled thoughts in my head and working them to clarity on the screen. I love the creative process of putting a piece together. And there’s something rewarding about stepping back and reading the finished product. Writing brings joy to my heart.
In doing anything we love, it’s easy to lose sight of the initial desire that first propelled us to pursue it, especially when it’s part of your job. Whether it’s writing, singing, poetry, athletics, medicine, law, theology, etc… without a regular reminder of why you first started, it’s easy to grow apathetic and lazy and convince yourself it’s not worth it.
“No one reads what I write.”
“No one listens to the music I make.”
“I never come in first place.”
“I always sit the bench.”
Not only do you have to ask the “Why?” question. You also have to ask the “Who?” question. Who are you doing this for? Are you doing it cause you’re forced? Will you lose the approval of your parents if you don’t? Are you trying to impress others? Essentially, is it for someone else or yourself?
At the end of the day, it comes down to these two questions. Why and Who? If you do it for yourself and because you love it, it doesn’t matter if anyone else notices. What matters is that you are doing what you love, what God has put in you to do. It’s what makes you come alive.
What is it that you love to do? Why did you initially pursue it? Keep working at it. Find fulfillment in it no matter what anyone else thinks.